Sept. 30, 2025
Episode 1 The Day I Died: And What Awakened In Me
The day I died changed everything.
In this premiere episode of Dial Up Intuition, I share the powerful and personal story of the day my life took a dramatic turn, when a sudden brain hemorrhage left me flatlined and clinically dead. What happened next was beyond anything I could have imagined: I experienced a vivid near-death experience (NDE) that connected me to the vast, loving energy of the universe and unlocked intuitive gifts I never knew I had.
I talk about what it felt like to become “one with everything,” the incredible connection I felt to all beings, and how that experience shifted my purpose forever. I also share the moment I received my very first mediumship reading, what it revealed, and how it helped me understand the spiritual path I was suddenly walking.
If you’ve ever felt curious about intuition, energy, or what really happens when we leave this life… this episode will open the door.
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[SPEAKER_00]: What if the moment you thought was the end was actually the beginning?
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[SPEAKER_00]: I died in 2010 from a massive brain hemorrhage and came back with a connection to something I never expected.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Intuition, insight, and a whole new purpose.
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[SPEAKER_00]: This podcast was born from that moment to help you explore your own intuitive gifts.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Unlock what's already within you and learn how to trust the voice that's been quietly guiding you all along.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Welcome to dial-up intuition.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Upon cast that invites you to awaken and expand your intuition.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I'm your host Kat Sanders.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I was a radio and television broadcaster before a massive brain hemorrhage caused me to flatline.
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[SPEAKER_00]: That life-changing event led to a beautiful near-death experience, and when I came back, I returned with some profound truths and the ability to connect with the other side.
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[SPEAKER_00]: In this podcast we'll explore these truths and learn how to strengthen your intuition and intuitive gifts.
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[SPEAKER_00]: You'll hear conversations with remarkable intuitives who will share how their gifts came alive, evolved, and became part of their daily lives.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So whether you're just beginning your intuitive journey or you're ready to go deeper, this is your space to be inspired, guided, and reminded that your intuitive gift was always within you.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So let's begin and dial up our intuition together.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Welcome to the very first episode of Dial Up Intuition.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So first let me introduce myself and tell you a little bit about who I am and why I started this podcast just so that we could talk about intuition and psychic gifts.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So who am I and why am I uniquely qualified to talk about this stuff?
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[SPEAKER_00]: Well my life changed dramatically in 2010 when I had a brain hemorrhage and died.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I literally checked out and then when I came back I had a whole new perspective and some new gifts.
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[SPEAKER_00]: It started back on April 22nd of 2010.
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[SPEAKER_00]: That was the day I died and I came back a whole different person.
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[SPEAKER_00]: It started off like any other day.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I had a training that morning with my husband at a board of realtors.
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[SPEAKER_00]: It was a training on going paperless, which was a revolutionary concept back then, especially in real estate where there was so much paperwork.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So training went really well and we were both riding high after the training felt really good about how it went.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So I had a lunch in that day with one of my very favorite people.
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[SPEAKER_00]: We laughed a lot and we had a really, really good time.
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[SPEAKER_00]: After that I had kind of an opening in my schedule.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I didn't have anything until late in the afternoon.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So I was thinking about, you know, it was such a good day and all of that.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So I called my hubby.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I was feeling a little frisky and I just suggested maybe we, well, you know, no filters here.
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[SPEAKER_00]: suggested kind of a romantic meet-up.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So I went home.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Showered, heard my heavy-coming in the front door.
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[SPEAKER_00]: He was starting up the stairs, and that's when it hit me.
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[SPEAKER_00]: It felt like somebody had stabbed me in the head with a knife.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I literally put my hand on my head, expecting that there was some things sticking out of my head.
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[SPEAKER_00]: It was intense pain.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I had never felt anything like it in my life.
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[SPEAKER_00]: My brain's my entire life.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I was not a painwimp, and this was the most intense pain in my head.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I had ever felt.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And all of a sudden, everything started going kind of blurry.
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[SPEAKER_00]: My sound was kind of muffled.
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[SPEAKER_00]: My eyesight was going blurry.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Everything just was going nuts.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I didn't know what to think.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So I looked over at the bed and thought, make it to the bed just go sit down.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Something serious is going on.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So I told my legs, you know, walk over to the bed.
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[SPEAKER_00]: They did not obey.
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[SPEAKER_00]: You tell your legs to do something.
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[SPEAKER_00]: They do it.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I told my legs to do it.
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[SPEAKER_00]: They did not obey.
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[SPEAKER_00]: This was terrifying.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So everything at that point started fading to black, fading to black.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And if you're old enough to have known those old cameras
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[SPEAKER_00]: you'll know what I'm talking about, but everything was like a camera lens just kind of going smaller, smaller, smaller, like a circle smaller, smaller, smaller until everything was black.
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[SPEAKER_00]: It was like a soft black, but black, and that was it.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I was out.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Now for my husband, he comes walking in the door and he's thinking, hey, you know, this is going to be a great time, you know, comes up the stairs, goes walking in the door.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And all he knows is the last thing I said to him was, my head hurts really bad and I'm scared.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And then he sees me collapsing.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Fortunately, he got there in time that he was able to get to me before I completely fell to the floor and he caught me going down.
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[SPEAKER_00]: That was a good thing, because I was in serious enough condition.
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[SPEAKER_00]: He caught me, helped me down to the floor, and then immediately called 911.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And he's thinking, what is this, you know, my wife, she's in her 40s, and she's collapsing.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Feeling great during the day, we had this great training.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So, stroke, heart attack, he doesn't know.
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[SPEAKER_00]: But he calls 911, they get their super fast.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And, you know, they're looking at me like, I don't know what's going on, so they take me in the ambulance, rush me over to the hospital and my husband follows the ambulance the whole way and he sees the ambulance pull up and when they pull out the gurney with me on it, immediately they've got the crash cart there and they're paddling me.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And he learns that they did CPR on the way and they had to start my heart up there, as soon as they got to the hospital.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So he's totally freaking out.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So I get to the hospital and they pull me in and immediately have to drill a hole in my head to let the blood out.
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[SPEAKER_00]: This is pretty serious.
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[SPEAKER_00]: It's pretty bad.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So they get me stable there at the hospital and realize I'm having a brain hemorrhage.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So they know I need brain surgery at this point and there's no brain surgeons at that hospital.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So they call over to the county hospital.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And say, we need brain surgeons.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I need to send her over there while they're full up.
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[SPEAKER_00]: There was apparently some MS 13 gang shooting in the county and so all of the victims of these bullets were over at county hospital.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And they said, sorry, no room.
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[SPEAKER_00]: My wonderful doctor at the emergency room there said, look.
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[SPEAKER_00]: You're her only hope.
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[SPEAKER_00]: We've got to send her.
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[SPEAKER_00]: This is a life worth saving.
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[SPEAKER_00]: You've got to take her and they kept insisting.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Sorry, there is just no room.
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[SPEAKER_00]: We don't have any space for her.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So my emergency room doctor said, Hey, I'm I'm sending her anyway.
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[SPEAKER_00]: You have got to help her.
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[SPEAKER_00]: This is her only chance.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So they put me in an ambulance and sent me over to the county hospital.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And once I got there, again, they still didn't have any room.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So there I was in a gurney.
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[SPEAKER_00]: They basically just set me out in the hallway.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And for a couple of hours, there I sat.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Now they did have the brain surgery team there.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And they were there prepped and ready to go because I guess one of the gang members had been shot in the head.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So they were ready, they were there in surgery or
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[SPEAKER_00]: or ready for surgery with this gang member.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And just as they were ready to operate on him, he died.
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[SPEAKER_00]: They're scrubbed up ready to go.
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[SPEAKER_00]: No patient to operate on.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So they went, Oh, well, there's this woman in the hallway.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And I guess she needs surgery.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So,
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[SPEAKER_00]: They checked my cat scan and went, well, I don't know, but I guess we could try.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So they came out and talked to my husband, basically said, okay, so what's happened to her, she had an AVM, which is an arterial venous malformation.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And so it's a kind of a cluster of veins, really a birth defect that I was completely unaware that I had, that causes this...
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[SPEAKER_00]: Well, malformation that is like a plumbing defect and so the blood keeps going in but it can't get out I guess and so eventually it just bursts and most of the time it's completely fatal so they said well we can go in and we can try and fix it but she's got about a 10% chance of living through the surgery and about well a trillion to one chance of ever being reasonably functional so you want us to do it or should we just kind of let her sit there and die so
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[SPEAKER_00]: you know, they were a little more polite, of course, but my husband said, well, do what you can, give her a chance, you know, you got to try.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So they went in and did the surgery and I think they were better than they thought they were.
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[SPEAKER_00]: They had to take like a golf ball size part of my brain out just to get to where this thing was, which was the biggest problem.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So they did that, patched me back up again.
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[SPEAKER_00]: They did a number on my hair, and it shaved me, and all that, and did a cranny auto me, and all that, anyway, they put me back, and I see you, and said, well, we'll see if she comes out, and how she comes out, and all that.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So basically, six weeks in a coma, and lots of,
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[SPEAKER_00]: ups and downs in my health.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Can I swallow can I figure out who I am?
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[SPEAKER_00]: Will I wake up?
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[SPEAKER_00]: All of that.
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[SPEAKER_00]: But the bottom line was I did wake up.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I did know who I was and they did send me home and said, see how she goes, see how she makes it.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And it was very very hard to recover.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I was like an infant again.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I had to learn to put my hand to my mouth to feed myself.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I had to learn to walk again.
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[SPEAKER_00]: It was not a fun journey but I am stubborn and my husband was an awesome coach pushing me all the way through and I did I did come back so took me like two years to walk took me about three and a half before I could drive again.
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[SPEAKER_00]: so he was a big journey.
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[SPEAKER_00]: During that journey, some weird things started to happen and of course here you are recovering from brain surgery so you start thinking, you know, what is this?
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[SPEAKER_00]: But I started to get these messages and these visions and it was other people's memories that were coming through and
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[SPEAKER_00]: that's a really weird thing.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So, you know, we'll talk about that.
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[SPEAKER_00]: But I think the most important thing, you know, my poor husband and my poor family was dealing with all of this ICU and all of these these things.
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[SPEAKER_00]: But what I was dealing with was something so very different because for me, there's whole six weeks in a coma and all of this really was a lot of just sleeping and all of that.
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[SPEAKER_00]: My experience was absolutely beautiful.
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[SPEAKER_00]: because what I had during this time was the most incredible and the most beautiful near-death experience that you could even imagine.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So let me tell you a little bit about this near-death experience.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I feel bad for my family and what they had to deal with because I was just in this glorious marvellous
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[SPEAKER_00]: So I'll tell you a little bit about that.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So I told you this camera lens just kind of closes up.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And when I say it closed up to black, it was again this soft, beautiful black.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And then that camera lens that went this circle that goes to black kind of opened back up.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And some people say they see this tunnel.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Well, it was maybe, you know, this little circular thing.
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[SPEAKER_00]: but that circle opens back up.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And I'm in this customized to me.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Beautiful, there couldn't be a better place for me.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Beautiful, place like a park.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I'll say like a park, because when you're in a place like this, you just can't use worldly words to describe it.
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[SPEAKER_00]: so I'll do my best.
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[SPEAKER_00]: But we'll say it's like a park, but unlike any park anybody's ever seen before on this world, the colors were indescribable.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And the we'll say it's grass that was below me, it was almost like somebody had taken a pair of nail clippers and just taken every single blade of grass and made it perfectly manicured.
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[SPEAKER_00]: but this grass had never been eaten by a bug.
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[SPEAKER_00]: It was so pristine and perfect.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And the most beautiful green that I can't describe because, again, I've never seen the color here in the world.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So here's this grass and then off to my left is this gorgeous tree, maybe like an oak, maybe more like the tree of life.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Just this beautiful tree, the sky was a blue
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[SPEAKER_00]: I don't know.
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[SPEAKER_00]: The closest I've seen is maybe a Tanzanite, but this gorgeous blue that you can feel.
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[SPEAKER_00]: In fact, everything you could feel because you feel like you're part of everything.
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[SPEAKER_00]: You are connected in such a way that you are just part of everything you're connected.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So I'm in this place and I'm just feeling like I am so loved and so forgiven and just so connected to everything and once you're there and you're feeling so loved and so beautiful you start to feel other people you start to feel like gee I feel the people that have lost.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I feel my grandparents, I feel my parents.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I feel all of this ancestry, I feel animals.
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[SPEAKER_00]: In fact, I hear animals, I hear bird singing.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I know there are other animals, I know that there's everything right here.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And it's just the most incredible, beautiful, pure love feeling, like a warm blanket around you.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And then I see what's kind of like a throne to my right that appears and a figure on the throne.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And I think, wow, this is like God.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And so I feel as though, okay, I have the forgiveness and the love of a supreme being, an omnipotent being.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And I can't tell if it's God or Jesus or Buddha, Mother Nature.
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[SPEAKER_00]: It's like everything all at once.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And I don't feel intimidated or afraid.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I just feel love.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Okay, everything's okay, and I don't have anything to fear.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I see all of this, and all of a sudden I go into kind of this dream-like place in my mind where I'm getting this download, and this download is coming in from this omnipotent God who is all of a sudden showing me some things from my life that are important, and it's like I need to be shown something that is very, very important that I've learned
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[SPEAKER_00]: And it's not like I've been scolded, it's like I need to be enlightened.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I need to understand some things.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And so some of the things that I had learned from my upbringing, from church, from things that I had understood in life, I was being shown that this may be not the right way.
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[SPEAKER_00]: But again, not in a way that's being scolded, but in a way that's being enlightened.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So I had always believed that when you die, there's kind of a hierarchy and so certain people, the people that are perfect in life that don't sin or that their sins are tiny tiny, they're going to be exalted or they're going to be in a place that's better or they're going to be first in line.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So I always had this line up in my mind of, you know, the chosen people are going to be first and then the people without sin or with very little sin that always gave the most of themselves.
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[SPEAKER_00]: They go first and then the other people and people who don't believe in God, they're going to be closer to the end of the line, people who do these horrible things their way in the back of a line.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So I always had this line up in my mind.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And so I was shown this line up as I believed it.
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[SPEAKER_00]: and these people in my mind, all these people in line, the people that didn't believe or that did bad things, they were towards the end.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And I always thought, you know, certain religions, they were closer to the front of the line and then they, other religions were back in the line.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So here I see this line up of people.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And then I'm shown by this God that all of a sudden, these people get intermingled.
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[SPEAKER_00]: and they're put into a circle or a group.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And nobody gets to be the front of the line and nobody is at the back of the line.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And this God person, he's kind of holding all of them in his arms.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And I'm getting this message that these are my children.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I love all my children.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And would you love one of your children more than another of your children?
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[SPEAKER_00]: No.
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[SPEAKER_00]: You love all of your children equally, so no one goes to the front of the line, no one goes to the back of the line, everyone comes to me.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Forgiveness is unconditional, and I all of a sudden understood that you can forgive, but you can't forgive conditionally, that forgiveness is unconditional.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And I also understood that you need to not be judgmental.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And I was getting this message of forgiveness and being non-judgmental.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And he was showing me that you can look at a person and not see the shell.
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[SPEAKER_00]: He said, we are all beautiful souls.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And you need to stop looking at the shell.
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[SPEAKER_00]: because the shell is that a shell look deep into their eyes was the message stop looking at the shell look deep into their eyes and see their soul because we are all beautiful souls and the shell doesn't matter.
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[SPEAKER_00]: It doesn't matter if someone is short, if someone is heavy or skinny or dark or light.
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[SPEAKER_00]: It doesn't matter what they wear and close.
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[SPEAKER_00]: It doesn't matter if they're old
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[SPEAKER_00]: deep into their eyes and you can see their soul and it was such a beautiful message and so I was shown some things about how we go down to the world and we learn for our soul's sake.
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[SPEAKER_00]: We learn these lessons and some of us choose to go and learn hard lessons because it's good for our soul.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Some of us choose easier lives, some of us choose harder lives.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And so these are things we choose before we go into our bodies and learn, and then we come back home.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And so then we choose to go back again, some of us choose to go multiple times, many, many times, in different lives.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And so then I was all of a sudden learning these lessons, learning and learning different things.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And then I was put back into that park like setting again.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I went from kind of this dreamlike place back into that place that I had been before where I was in that park.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And suddenly in that place in the park where it was so beautiful, and the music was so beautiful, the tree was so beautiful.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I started to feel again, all these ancestors, all these people that I had loved, and I was feeling also my son, my stepdaughter.
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[SPEAKER_00]: My husband, the people that were in the world, I felt connected to everyone all at once and I thought, what a perfect place I can be connected to everyone.
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[SPEAKER_00]: This is where I want to be forever and ever.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I love this place.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And then this pathway just appeared right where I was and it just went past the tree and it was beautiful.
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[SPEAKER_00]: It was so white.
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[SPEAKER_00]: It was so white.
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[SPEAKER_00]: You would think it would hurt your eyes
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[SPEAKER_00]: beautiful brilliant white.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And I thought, all I need to do is take a few steps down this pathway and I will be here forever because just beyond that pathway is permanence is eternity.
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[SPEAKER_00]: It's home.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So I immediately started down this pathway.
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[SPEAKER_00]: This is where I want to stay.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I'll be here forever.
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[SPEAKER_00]: and I know I won't be disconnected from the people in the world.
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[SPEAKER_00]: They're part of me.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I'm right here with everyone and I'll have the people that have passed because I'm feeling them.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I'm feeling the animals.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I'm feeling my ancestors.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I feel my mom, my dad.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I feel everyone.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So I started down that path and immediately my father, my late father, appeared before me and stopped my progress.
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[SPEAKER_00]: He was right there in front of me.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Oh, and he looked so good.
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[SPEAKER_00]: My father died from a blood disease that had just damaged him in so many ways.
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[SPEAKER_00]: It had taken part of his face with skin cancer and all of this and it had just, he was so skinny when he died and it had really just damaged his body.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I remember the day that he died, he just looked so, so bad.
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[SPEAKER_00]: But here in this place,
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[SPEAKER_00]: He was perfect and I'm going to say he looked to be about maybe 25 years old and my dad was 17 when he died.
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[SPEAKER_00]: But he had gray hair and he again just looked so sickly when he died.
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[SPEAKER_00]: But here he was perfect.
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[SPEAKER_00]: He had his beautiful wavy Auburn hair and he was young and vibrant looking.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Oh, it was so good to see him.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I was so happy to see him, and I just wanted to reach out and hug him and love him, and I just felt him so close to me, I felt connected so much to him, but he stopped me, and he said, no, he said, you have more to do, you need to go back.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And as much as I thought, I should be feeling so sad and want to say, no, no, no, no, I want to stay here.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I didn't.
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[SPEAKER_00]: When he said that to me, I took it in with acceptance and realized that if my father is saying this, and God is right there, not stopping him from saying this, that it was as it should be and that, okay, I needed to go back, so I accepted this.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Even though all my heart had been wanting to stay there, if my father and God were saying I need to go back, then there must be a reason.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And I must accept this, and I closed my eyes, and I felt this heaviness.
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[SPEAKER_00]: The heaviness overtook me, and I just felt like I was falling.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And I felt just squeezed and heavy.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And almost felt like I was just being squeezed back into my body.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Everything went to black, and it stayed black.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And the next thing I remember, just this soft blackness.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I remember a couple of little things during the coma.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I remember asking, if I remember feeling a figure next to me, I was rolling on a gurney.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I remember the feeling of rolling and being afraid and asking, would you please hold my hand to this figure?
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[SPEAKER_00]: And I remember feeling someone holding my hand.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And I heard from my husband later, that was a nurse, a male nurse.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And he did, he held my hand, and I remember hearing my husband pray, he prayed to God, please God, let her live, I'll take her anyway, she comes.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And then I remember waking up from the coma, and my husband was with me.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And it was back to the world, and it was hard, but I just kept remembering, I need to be here, I have more to do.
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[SPEAKER_00]: You know when you dream, you wake up in the morning and for a
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[SPEAKER_00]: split second, maybe a few seconds, you remember the dream, but it fades very quickly.
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[SPEAKER_00]: But when you have a near-death experience, that experience is more real than your life in this world.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And I will never, ever forget any of the details of that near-death experience.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Because that experience was more real than this life right now.
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[SPEAKER_00]: That was not a dream.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Since I've come back, I've had experiences, I've had memories, since I've come back, I started having things happen.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I started having memories from other people that were starting to come into my mind.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I thought, what is this?
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[SPEAKER_00]: Is this my brain not functioning correctly?
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[SPEAKER_00]: So for the longest time, I pushed them away and pushed them away.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I didn't know what to think at first, it scared me a little bit.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I thought my brain's not working right, but it kept happening.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I remember I went to a wedding after I had recovered a little bit.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And a lady came up to me and she said, if you have these things coming into your mind, other people's thoughts, other people trying to communicate with you.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And you're not ready for it.
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[SPEAKER_00]: You just tell them no and they'll go away.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And when you're ready, you can accept it, you can listen.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And then she walked away.
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[SPEAKER_00]: It was a real crowded wedding.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And I wanted to go find her, but I was still at a point where I wasn't walking all that well.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And I lost her in the crowd.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And I thought, oh, who was she?
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[SPEAKER_00]: I could really use her help, but I couldn't find her again.
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[SPEAKER_00]: But I remembered what she said, and I started telling them, no, no, I'm not ready.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I'm not ready.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And those voices in those messages went away.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And I thought, okay, this is good.
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[SPEAKER_00]: They went away.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And after a while, I started getting a feeling in my left hand.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And I am not left handed.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I started getting a feeling wanting to write, so I picked up a pad of paper, and I started scribbling, and all of a sudden the word Naomi came out.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I thought, well, that's odd.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I don't know anyone with that name, and later on I felt that feeling again, and so I started writing, and I wrote the word Naomi again, in cursive, I thought.
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[SPEAKER_00]: That's odd.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And then one time I was sitting at a service, a funeral service for an acquaintance.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And I was sitting next to another acquaintance.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I felt like writing, so I just started scribbling.
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[SPEAKER_00]: But it was mostly scribbles.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I think I was kind of paying attention to the service.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And all of a sudden, she kind of nudged me.
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[SPEAKER_00]: She said, Why are you drawing a picture of my dad?
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[SPEAKER_00]: And I looked down and I had drawn a picture of a policeman with my left hand.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And it was the way
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[SPEAKER_00]: just think as I'll tell you, I am not an artist.
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[SPEAKER_00]: In fact, even with my right hand, if I draw a stick figure, that poor stick figure wants to run off the page and embarrass me because I am a no artist.
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[SPEAKER_00]: My husband will attest to that.
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[SPEAKER_00]: He laughs at my drawing so I really avoid drawing.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And I looked down at this picture and I thought, hey, that's not bad at all.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So I kind of looked at the drawing I had drawn and it was the weirdest thing is as I'm looking at it I'm getting this message and this little drawing this cop I had drawn was smoking a cigarette and I really was getting a very strong message just like this gentleman this cop couldn't stop smoking he was completely addicted to smoking he was saying that if this daughter of his didn't stop drinking
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[SPEAKER_00]: I took my friend aside after the service and I gave her the message.
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[SPEAKER_00]: She didn't take it well, but she did listen.
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[SPEAKER_00]: For the next couple of years, I watched her become more and more addicted to alcohol.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And family and friends, frantically tried to intervene.
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[SPEAKER_00]: It was hard.
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[SPEAKER_00]: She was a good friend of mine at that point.
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[SPEAKER_00]: She finally died one night from alcohol poisoning in her forties just as her father had warned My gift started with the automatic writing and the name Naomi I found out later Naomi is one of my spirit guides.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Naomi was reaching out to me trying to let me know She was there.
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[SPEAKER_00]: She wanted to help me.
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[SPEAKER_00]: It's now become a gift of mediumship and a gift of Medical Intuitiveness and the gifts are beautiful
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[SPEAKER_00]: So what gifts are waiting inside of you that you might be pushing away or passing off as some kind of imagination?
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[SPEAKER_00]: What might be sitting there waiting for you to open up and say yes and to stop saying no?
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[SPEAKER_00]: Is it automatic writing?
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[SPEAKER_00]: Is it mediumship?
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[SPEAKER_00]: Is it medical intuitiveness?
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[SPEAKER_00]: Maybe it's the gift of healing, premonition.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Pet mediumship.
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[SPEAKER_00]: It could be any number of things that you're just pushing away.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Don't push it away.
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[SPEAKER_00]: It's a beautiful, beautiful thing to have in your life.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Start by meeting your spirit guides, by opening yourself up to the possibilities, by just allowing the yes instead of the no.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So whatever that intuition is that you have that's already there, just open up and say yes.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Maybe you already have said yes and you're listening to this podcast just to get some extra ideas and that's wonderful.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Maybe you're just curious whatever it is that's where we begin with curiosity.
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[SPEAKER_00]: with stories and knowing that your gifts are just there waiting for you to dial them up.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So wherever you are, let's do this.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Living with intuition is so much better than living without them.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So that's why I'm doing this podcast because it's a beautiful way to live your life.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And I want everyone to have a chance to live that way.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I've lived without it and lived with it and I know it's so much better to embrace it.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So in my upcoming episodes, I'll help you to tap into that quiet voice inside.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I'll bring in guests that have dialed up their own intuition in various ways and they found their gifts.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So we'll discuss how to meet your spirit guides, how to connect with that other side, and find your unique spiritual gifts.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I hope to bring or expand that light and love of intuition into your life.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So until next time, open up those possibilities or expand the ones that you already have and let those gifts flow within you.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So thanks for listening.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Thanks for tuning in to dial up intuition.
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[SPEAKER_00]: What if the moment you thought was the end was actually the beginning?
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[SPEAKER_00]: I died in 2010 from a massive brain hemorrhage and came back with a connection to something I never expected.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Intuition, insight, and a whole new purpose.
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[SPEAKER_00]: This podcast was born from that moment to help you explore your own intuitive gifts.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Unlock what's already within you and learn how to trust the voice that's been quietly guiding you all along.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Welcome to dial-up intuition.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Upon cast that invites you to awaken and expand your intuition.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I'm your host Kat Sanders.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I was a radio and television broadcaster before a massive brain hemorrhage caused me to flatline.
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[SPEAKER_00]: That life-changing event led to a beautiful near-death experience, and when I came back, I returned with some profound truths and the ability to connect with the other side.
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[SPEAKER_00]: In this podcast we'll explore these truths and learn how to strengthen your intuition and intuitive gifts.
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[SPEAKER_00]: You'll hear conversations with remarkable intuitives who will share how their gifts came alive, evolved, and became part of their daily lives.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So whether you're just beginning your intuitive journey or you're ready to go deeper, this is your space to be inspired, guided, and reminded that your intuitive gift was always within you.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So let's begin and dial up our intuition together.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Welcome to the very first episode of Dial Up Intuition.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So first let me introduce myself and tell you a little bit about who I am and why I started this podcast just so that we could talk about intuition and psychic gifts.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So who am I and why am I uniquely qualified to talk about this stuff?
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[SPEAKER_00]: Well my life changed dramatically in 2010 when I had a brain hemorrhage and died.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I literally checked out and then when I came back I had a whole new perspective and some new gifts.
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[SPEAKER_00]: It started back on April 22nd of 2010.
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[SPEAKER_00]: That was the day I died and I came back a whole different person.
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[SPEAKER_00]: It started off like any other day.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I had a training that morning with my husband at a board of realtors.
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[SPEAKER_00]: It was a training on going paperless, which was a revolutionary concept back then, especially in real estate where there was so much paperwork.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So training went really well and we were both riding high after the training felt really good about how it went.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So I had a lunch in that day with one of my very favorite people.
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[SPEAKER_00]: We laughed a lot and we had a really, really good time.
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[SPEAKER_00]: After that I had kind of an opening in my schedule.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I didn't have anything until late in the afternoon.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So I was thinking about, you know, it was such a good day and all of that.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So I called my hubby.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I was feeling a little frisky and I just suggested maybe we, well, you know, no filters here.
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[SPEAKER_00]: suggested kind of a romantic meet-up.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So I went home.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Showered, heard my heavy-coming in the front door.
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[SPEAKER_00]: He was starting up the stairs, and that's when it hit me.
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[SPEAKER_00]: It felt like somebody had stabbed me in the head with a knife.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I literally put my hand on my head, expecting that there was some things sticking out of my head.
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[SPEAKER_00]: It was intense pain.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I had never felt anything like it in my life.
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[SPEAKER_00]: My brain's my entire life.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I was not a painwimp, and this was the most intense pain in my head.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I had ever felt.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And all of a sudden, everything started going kind of blurry.
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[SPEAKER_00]: My sound was kind of muffled.
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[SPEAKER_00]: My eyesight was going blurry.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Everything just was going nuts.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I didn't know what to think.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So I looked over at the bed and thought, make it to the bed just go sit down.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Something serious is going on.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So I told my legs, you know, walk over to the bed.
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[SPEAKER_00]: They did not obey.
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[SPEAKER_00]: You tell your legs to do something.
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[SPEAKER_00]: They do it.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I told my legs to do it.
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[SPEAKER_00]: They did not obey.
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[SPEAKER_00]: This was terrifying.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So everything at that point started fading to black, fading to black.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And if you're old enough to have known those old cameras
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[SPEAKER_00]: you'll know what I'm talking about, but everything was like a camera lens just kind of going smaller, smaller, smaller, like a circle smaller, smaller, smaller until everything was black.
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[SPEAKER_00]: It was like a soft black, but black, and that was it.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I was out.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Now for my husband, he comes walking in the door and he's thinking, hey, you know, this is going to be a great time, you know, comes up the stairs, goes walking in the door.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And all he knows is the last thing I said to him was, my head hurts really bad and I'm scared.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And then he sees me collapsing.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Fortunately, he got there in time that he was able to get to me before I completely fell to the floor and he caught me going down.
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[SPEAKER_00]: That was a good thing, because I was in serious enough condition.
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[SPEAKER_00]: He caught me, helped me down to the floor, and then immediately called 911.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And he's thinking, what is this, you know, my wife, she's in her 40s, and she's collapsing.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Feeling great during the day, we had this great training.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So, stroke, heart attack, he doesn't know.
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[SPEAKER_00]: But he calls 911, they get their super fast.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And, you know, they're looking at me like, I don't know what's going on, so they take me in the ambulance, rush me over to the hospital and my husband follows the ambulance the whole way and he sees the ambulance pull up and when they pull out the gurney with me on it, immediately they've got the crash cart there and they're paddling me.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And he learns that they did CPR on the way and they had to start my heart up there, as soon as they got to the hospital.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So he's totally freaking out.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So I get to the hospital and they pull me in and immediately have to drill a hole in my head to let the blood out.
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[SPEAKER_00]: This is pretty serious.
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[SPEAKER_00]: It's pretty bad.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So they get me stable there at the hospital and realize I'm having a brain hemorrhage.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So they know I need brain surgery at this point and there's no brain surgeons at that hospital.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So they call over to the county hospital.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And say, we need brain surgeons.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I need to send her over there while they're full up.
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[SPEAKER_00]: There was apparently some MS 13 gang shooting in the county and so all of the victims of these bullets were over at county hospital.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And they said, sorry, no room.
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[SPEAKER_00]: My wonderful doctor at the emergency room there said, look.
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[SPEAKER_00]: You're her only hope.
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[SPEAKER_00]: We've got to send her.
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[SPEAKER_00]: This is a life worth saving.
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[SPEAKER_00]: You've got to take her and they kept insisting.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Sorry, there is just no room.
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[SPEAKER_00]: We don't have any space for her.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So my emergency room doctor said, Hey, I'm I'm sending her anyway.
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[SPEAKER_00]: You have got to help her.
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[SPEAKER_00]: This is her only chance.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So they put me in an ambulance and sent me over to the county hospital.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And once I got there, again, they still didn't have any room.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So there I was in a gurney.
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[SPEAKER_00]: They basically just set me out in the hallway.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And for a couple of hours, there I sat.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Now they did have the brain surgery team there.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And they were there prepped and ready to go because I guess one of the gang members had been shot in the head.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So they were ready, they were there in surgery or
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[SPEAKER_00]: or ready for surgery with this gang member.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And just as they were ready to operate on him, he died.
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[SPEAKER_00]: They're scrubbed up ready to go.
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[SPEAKER_00]: No patient to operate on.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So they went, Oh, well, there's this woman in the hallway.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And I guess she needs surgery.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So,
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[SPEAKER_00]: They checked my cat scan and went, well, I don't know, but I guess we could try.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So they came out and talked to my husband, basically said, okay, so what's happened to her, she had an AVM, which is an arterial venous malformation.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And so it's a kind of a cluster of veins, really a birth defect that I was completely unaware that I had, that causes this...
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[SPEAKER_00]: Well, malformation that is like a plumbing defect and so the blood keeps going in but it can't get out I guess and so eventually it just bursts and most of the time it's completely fatal so they said well we can go in and we can try and fix it but she's got about a 10% chance of living through the surgery and about well a trillion to one chance of ever being reasonably functional so you want us to do it or should we just kind of let her sit there and die so
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[SPEAKER_00]: you know, they were a little more polite, of course, but my husband said, well, do what you can, give her a chance, you know, you got to try.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So they went in and did the surgery and I think they were better than they thought they were.
08:47.827 --> 08:54.615
[SPEAKER_00]: They had to take like a golf ball size part of my brain out just to get to where this thing was, which was the biggest problem.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So they did that, patched me back up again.
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[SPEAKER_00]: They did a number on my hair, and it shaved me, and all that, and did a cranny auto me, and all that, anyway, they put me back, and I see you, and said, well, we'll see if she comes out, and how she comes out, and all that.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So basically, six weeks in a coma, and lots of,
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[SPEAKER_00]: ups and downs in my health.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Can I swallow can I figure out who I am?
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[SPEAKER_00]: Will I wake up?
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[SPEAKER_00]: All of that.
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[SPEAKER_00]: But the bottom line was I did wake up.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I did know who I was and they did send me home and said, see how she goes, see how she makes it.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And it was very very hard to recover.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I was like an infant again.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I had to learn to put my hand to my mouth to feed myself.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I had to learn to walk again.
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[SPEAKER_00]: It was not a fun journey but I am stubborn and my husband was an awesome coach pushing me all the way through and I did I did come back so took me like two years to walk took me about three and a half before I could drive again.
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[SPEAKER_00]: so he was a big journey.
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[SPEAKER_00]: During that journey, some weird things started to happen and of course here you are recovering from brain surgery so you start thinking, you know, what is this?
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[SPEAKER_00]: But I started to get these messages and these visions and it was other people's memories that were coming through and
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[SPEAKER_00]: that's a really weird thing.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So, you know, we'll talk about that.
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[SPEAKER_00]: But I think the most important thing, you know, my poor husband and my poor family was dealing with all of this ICU and all of these these things.
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[SPEAKER_00]: But what I was dealing with was something so very different because for me, there's whole six weeks in a coma and all of this really was a lot of just sleeping and all of that.
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[SPEAKER_00]: My experience was absolutely beautiful.
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[SPEAKER_00]: because what I had during this time was the most incredible and the most beautiful near-death experience that you could even imagine.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So let me tell you a little bit about this near-death experience.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I feel bad for my family and what they had to deal with because I was just in this glorious marvellous
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[SPEAKER_00]: So I'll tell you a little bit about that.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So I told you this camera lens just kind of closes up.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And when I say it closed up to black, it was again this soft, beautiful black.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And then that camera lens that went this circle that goes to black kind of opened back up.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And some people say they see this tunnel.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Well, it was maybe, you know, this little circular thing.
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[SPEAKER_00]: but that circle opens back up.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And I'm in this customized to me.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Beautiful, there couldn't be a better place for me.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Beautiful, place like a park.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I'll say like a park, because when you're in a place like this, you just can't use worldly words to describe it.
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[SPEAKER_00]: so I'll do my best.
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[SPEAKER_00]: But we'll say it's like a park, but unlike any park anybody's ever seen before on this world, the colors were indescribable.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And the we'll say it's grass that was below me, it was almost like somebody had taken a pair of nail clippers and just taken every single blade of grass and made it perfectly manicured.
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[SPEAKER_00]: but this grass had never been eaten by a bug.
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[SPEAKER_00]: It was so pristine and perfect.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And the most beautiful green that I can't describe because, again, I've never seen the color here in the world.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So here's this grass and then off to my left is this gorgeous tree, maybe like an oak, maybe more like the tree of life.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Just this beautiful tree, the sky was a blue
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[SPEAKER_00]: I don't know.
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[SPEAKER_00]: The closest I've seen is maybe a Tanzanite, but this gorgeous blue that you can feel.
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[SPEAKER_00]: In fact, everything you could feel because you feel like you're part of everything.
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[SPEAKER_00]: You are connected in such a way that you are just part of everything you're connected.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So I'm in this place and I'm just feeling like I am so loved and so forgiven and just so connected to everything and once you're there and you're feeling so loved and so beautiful you start to feel other people you start to feel like gee I feel the people that have lost.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I feel my grandparents, I feel my parents.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I feel all of this ancestry, I feel animals.
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[SPEAKER_00]: In fact, I hear animals, I hear bird singing.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I know there are other animals, I know that there's everything right here.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And it's just the most incredible, beautiful, pure love feeling, like a warm blanket around you.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And then I see what's kind of like a throne to my right that appears and a figure on the throne.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And I think, wow, this is like God.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And so I feel as though, okay, I have the forgiveness and the love of a supreme being, an omnipotent being.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And I can't tell if it's God or Jesus or Buddha, Mother Nature.
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[SPEAKER_00]: It's like everything all at once.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And I don't feel intimidated or afraid.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I just feel love.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Okay, everything's okay, and I don't have anything to fear.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I see all of this, and all of a sudden I go into kind of this dream-like place in my mind where I'm getting this download, and this download is coming in from this omnipotent God who is all of a sudden showing me some things from my life that are important, and it's like I need to be shown something that is very, very important that I've learned
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[SPEAKER_00]: And it's not like I've been scolded, it's like I need to be enlightened.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I need to understand some things.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And so some of the things that I had learned from my upbringing, from church, from things that I had understood in life, I was being shown that this may be not the right way.
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[SPEAKER_00]: But again, not in a way that's being scolded, but in a way that's being enlightened.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So I had always believed that when you die, there's kind of a hierarchy and so certain people, the people that are perfect in life that don't sin or that their sins are tiny tiny, they're going to be exalted or they're going to be in a place that's better or they're going to be first in line.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So I always had this line up in my mind of, you know, the chosen people are going to be first and then the people without sin or with very little sin that always gave the most of themselves.
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[SPEAKER_00]: They go first and then the other people and people who don't believe in God, they're going to be closer to the end of the line, people who do these horrible things their way in the back of a line.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So I always had this line up in my mind.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And so I was shown this line up as I believed it.
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[SPEAKER_00]: and these people in my mind, all these people in line, the people that didn't believe or that did bad things, they were towards the end.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And I always thought, you know, certain religions, they were closer to the front of the line and then they, other religions were back in the line.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So here I see this line up of people.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And then I'm shown by this God that all of a sudden, these people get intermingled.
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[SPEAKER_00]: and they're put into a circle or a group.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And nobody gets to be the front of the line and nobody is at the back of the line.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And this God person, he's kind of holding all of them in his arms.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And I'm getting this message that these are my children.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I love all my children.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And would you love one of your children more than another of your children?
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[SPEAKER_00]: No.
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[SPEAKER_00]: You love all of your children equally, so no one goes to the front of the line, no one goes to the back of the line, everyone comes to me.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Forgiveness is unconditional, and I all of a sudden understood that you can forgive, but you can't forgive conditionally, that forgiveness is unconditional.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And I also understood that you need to not be judgmental.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And I was getting this message of forgiveness and being non-judgmental.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And he was showing me that you can look at a person and not see the shell.
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[SPEAKER_00]: He said, we are all beautiful souls.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And you need to stop looking at the shell.
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[SPEAKER_00]: because the shell is that a shell look deep into their eyes was the message stop looking at the shell look deep into their eyes and see their soul because we are all beautiful souls and the shell doesn't matter.
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[SPEAKER_00]: It doesn't matter if someone is short, if someone is heavy or skinny or dark or light.
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[SPEAKER_00]: It doesn't matter what they wear and close.
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[SPEAKER_00]: It doesn't matter if they're old
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[SPEAKER_00]: deep into their eyes and you can see their soul and it was such a beautiful message and so I was shown some things about how we go down to the world and we learn for our soul's sake.
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[SPEAKER_00]: We learn these lessons and some of us choose to go and learn hard lessons because it's good for our soul.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Some of us choose easier lives, some of us choose harder lives.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And so these are things we choose before we go into our bodies and learn, and then we come back home.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And so then we choose to go back again, some of us choose to go multiple times, many, many times, in different lives.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And so then I was all of a sudden learning these lessons, learning and learning different things.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And then I was put back into that park like setting again.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I went from kind of this dreamlike place back into that place that I had been before where I was in that park.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And suddenly in that place in the park where it was so beautiful, and the music was so beautiful, the tree was so beautiful.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I started to feel again, all these ancestors, all these people that I had loved, and I was feeling also my son, my stepdaughter.
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[SPEAKER_00]: My husband, the people that were in the world, I felt connected to everyone all at once and I thought, what a perfect place I can be connected to everyone.
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[SPEAKER_00]: This is where I want to be forever and ever.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I love this place.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And then this pathway just appeared right where I was and it just went past the tree and it was beautiful.
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[SPEAKER_00]: It was so white.
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[SPEAKER_00]: It was so white.
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[SPEAKER_00]: You would think it would hurt your eyes
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[SPEAKER_00]: beautiful brilliant white.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And I thought, all I need to do is take a few steps down this pathway and I will be here forever because just beyond that pathway is permanence is eternity.
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[SPEAKER_00]: It's home.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So I immediately started down this pathway.
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[SPEAKER_00]: This is where I want to stay.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I'll be here forever.
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[SPEAKER_00]: and I know I won't be disconnected from the people in the world.
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[SPEAKER_00]: They're part of me.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I'm right here with everyone and I'll have the people that have passed because I'm feeling them.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I'm feeling the animals.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I'm feeling my ancestors.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I feel my mom, my dad.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I feel everyone.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So I started down that path and immediately my father, my late father, appeared before me and stopped my progress.
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[SPEAKER_00]: He was right there in front of me.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Oh, and he looked so good.
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[SPEAKER_00]: My father died from a blood disease that had just damaged him in so many ways.
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[SPEAKER_00]: It had taken part of his face with skin cancer and all of this and it had just, he was so skinny when he died and it had really just damaged his body.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I remember the day that he died, he just looked so, so bad.
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[SPEAKER_00]: But here in this place,
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[SPEAKER_00]: He was perfect and I'm going to say he looked to be about maybe 25 years old and my dad was 17 when he died.
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[SPEAKER_00]: But he had gray hair and he again just looked so sickly when he died.
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[SPEAKER_00]: But here he was perfect.
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[SPEAKER_00]: He had his beautiful wavy Auburn hair and he was young and vibrant looking.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Oh, it was so good to see him.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I was so happy to see him, and I just wanted to reach out and hug him and love him, and I just felt him so close to me, I felt connected so much to him, but he stopped me, and he said, no, he said, you have more to do, you need to go back.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And as much as I thought, I should be feeling so sad and want to say, no, no, no, no, I want to stay here.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I didn't.
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[SPEAKER_00]: When he said that to me, I took it in with acceptance and realized that if my father is saying this, and God is right there, not stopping him from saying this, that it was as it should be and that, okay, I needed to go back, so I accepted this.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Even though all my heart had been wanting to stay there, if my father and God were saying I need to go back, then there must be a reason.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And I must accept this, and I closed my eyes, and I felt this heaviness.
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[SPEAKER_00]: The heaviness overtook me, and I just felt like I was falling.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And I felt just squeezed and heavy.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And almost felt like I was just being squeezed back into my body.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Everything went to black, and it stayed black.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And the next thing I remember, just this soft blackness.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I remember a couple of little things during the coma.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I remember asking, if I remember feeling a figure next to me, I was rolling on a gurney.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I remember the feeling of rolling and being afraid and asking, would you please hold my hand to this figure?
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[SPEAKER_00]: And I remember feeling someone holding my hand.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And I heard from my husband later, that was a nurse, a male nurse.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And he did, he held my hand, and I remember hearing my husband pray, he prayed to God, please God, let her live, I'll take her anyway, she comes.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And then I remember waking up from the coma, and my husband was with me.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And it was back to the world, and it was hard, but I just kept remembering, I need to be here, I have more to do.
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[SPEAKER_00]: You know when you dream, you wake up in the morning and for a
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[SPEAKER_00]: split second, maybe a few seconds, you remember the dream, but it fades very quickly.
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[SPEAKER_00]: But when you have a near-death experience, that experience is more real than your life in this world.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And I will never, ever forget any of the details of that near-death experience.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Because that experience was more real than this life right now.
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[SPEAKER_00]: That was not a dream.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Since I've come back, I've had experiences, I've had memories, since I've come back, I started having things happen.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I started having memories from other people that were starting to come into my mind.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I thought, what is this?
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[SPEAKER_00]: Is this my brain not functioning correctly?
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[SPEAKER_00]: So for the longest time, I pushed them away and pushed them away.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I didn't know what to think at first, it scared me a little bit.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I thought my brain's not working right, but it kept happening.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I remember I went to a wedding after I had recovered a little bit.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And a lady came up to me and she said, if you have these things coming into your mind, other people's thoughts, other people trying to communicate with you.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And you're not ready for it.
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[SPEAKER_00]: You just tell them no and they'll go away.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And when you're ready, you can accept it, you can listen.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And then she walked away.
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[SPEAKER_00]: It was a real crowded wedding.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And I wanted to go find her, but I was still at a point where I wasn't walking all that well.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And I lost her in the crowd.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And I thought, oh, who was she?
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[SPEAKER_00]: I could really use her help, but I couldn't find her again.
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[SPEAKER_00]: But I remembered what she said, and I started telling them, no, no, I'm not ready.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I'm not ready.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And those voices in those messages went away.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And I thought, okay, this is good.
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[SPEAKER_00]: They went away.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And after a while, I started getting a feeling in my left hand.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And I am not left handed.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I started getting a feeling wanting to write, so I picked up a pad of paper, and I started scribbling, and all of a sudden the word Naomi came out.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I thought, well, that's odd.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I don't know anyone with that name, and later on I felt that feeling again, and so I started writing, and I wrote the word Naomi again, in cursive, I thought.
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[SPEAKER_00]: That's odd.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And then one time I was sitting at a service, a funeral service for an acquaintance.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And I was sitting next to another acquaintance.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I felt like writing, so I just started scribbling.
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[SPEAKER_00]: But it was mostly scribbles.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I think I was kind of paying attention to the service.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And all of a sudden, she kind of nudged me.
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[SPEAKER_00]: She said, Why are you drawing a picture of my dad?
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[SPEAKER_00]: And I looked down and I had drawn a picture of a policeman with my left hand.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And it was the way
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[SPEAKER_00]: just think as I'll tell you, I am not an artist.
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[SPEAKER_00]: In fact, even with my right hand, if I draw a stick figure, that poor stick figure wants to run off the page and embarrass me because I am a no artist.
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[SPEAKER_00]: My husband will attest to that.
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[SPEAKER_00]: He laughs at my drawing so I really avoid drawing.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And I looked down at this picture and I thought, hey, that's not bad at all.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So I kind of looked at the drawing I had drawn and it was the weirdest thing is as I'm looking at it I'm getting this message and this little drawing this cop I had drawn was smoking a cigarette and I really was getting a very strong message just like this gentleman this cop couldn't stop smoking he was completely addicted to smoking he was saying that if this daughter of his didn't stop drinking
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[SPEAKER_00]: I took my friend aside after the service and I gave her the message.
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[SPEAKER_00]: She didn't take it well, but she did listen.
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[SPEAKER_00]: For the next couple of years, I watched her become more and more addicted to alcohol.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And family and friends, frantically tried to intervene.
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[SPEAKER_00]: It was hard.
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[SPEAKER_00]: She was a good friend of mine at that point.
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[SPEAKER_00]: She finally died one night from alcohol poisoning in her forties just as her father had warned My gift started with the automatic writing and the name Naomi I found out later Naomi is one of my spirit guides.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Naomi was reaching out to me trying to let me know She was there.
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[SPEAKER_00]: She wanted to help me.
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[SPEAKER_00]: It's now become a gift of mediumship and a gift of Medical Intuitiveness and the gifts are beautiful
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[SPEAKER_00]: So what gifts are waiting inside of you that you might be pushing away or passing off as some kind of imagination?
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[SPEAKER_00]: What might be sitting there waiting for you to open up and say yes and to stop saying no?
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[SPEAKER_00]: Is it automatic writing?
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[SPEAKER_00]: Is it mediumship?
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[SPEAKER_00]: Is it medical intuitiveness?
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[SPEAKER_00]: Maybe it's the gift of healing, premonition.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Pet mediumship.
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[SPEAKER_00]: It could be any number of things that you're just pushing away.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Don't push it away.
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[SPEAKER_00]: It's a beautiful, beautiful thing to have in your life.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Start by meeting your spirit guides, by opening yourself up to the possibilities, by just allowing the yes instead of the no.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So whatever that intuition is that you have that's already there, just open up and say yes.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Maybe you already have said yes and you're listening to this podcast just to get some extra ideas and that's wonderful.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Maybe you're just curious whatever it is that's where we begin with curiosity.
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[SPEAKER_00]: with stories and knowing that your gifts are just there waiting for you to dial them up.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So wherever you are, let's do this.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Living with intuition is so much better than living without them.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So that's why I'm doing this podcast because it's a beautiful way to live your life.
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[SPEAKER_00]: And I want everyone to have a chance to live that way.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I've lived without it and lived with it and I know it's so much better to embrace it.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So in my upcoming episodes, I'll help you to tap into that quiet voice inside.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I'll bring in guests that have dialed up their own intuition in various ways and they found their gifts.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So we'll discuss how to meet your spirit guides, how to connect with that other side, and find your unique spiritual gifts.
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[SPEAKER_00]: I hope to bring or expand that light and love of intuition into your life.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So until next time, open up those possibilities or expand the ones that you already have and let those gifts flow within you.
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[SPEAKER_00]: So thanks for listening.
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[SPEAKER_00]: If you like what you hear, please click that subscribe button so you won't miss an episode.
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[SPEAKER_00]: Thanks for tuning in to dial up intuition.
